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Tuesday. 10. 11. 2011.

I went to talk to the psychologist at the university for the second time and I was telling her that there’s been progress and I’ve been making changes to my life that SHOULD reduce the amount of anxiety I’m feeling. She asked me if I felt at risk of falling back into feeling depressed and suicidal based on my history of depression and suicide attempts. I told her that things are different now comparing to the past. That’s when it dawned on me that things are really different.

I’m in a stable relationship with someone I love and I KNOW loves me back.

I know people who I actually call my friends.

Attitudes in my family have changed. It was a bit shocking and VERY heart warming when my dad told me that he hopes I doing whatever makes me happy.

I’ve always known that I’m very fortunate to be loved and surrounded by people who are so caring and supportive. Which kind of does this circle guilt thing ’cause I should be more grateful blah blah blah.

Anyways. Hopefully this trend of things getting better will continue. I’m coming to terms that I don’t need to COMPLETELY understand EVERYTHING I come across. As well as the fact that I’m not going to get everything right away, some things will take a bit of time but that doesn’t translate to me being stupid.

Progress is slow but at least there’s progress.

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