happy pills

Last night we watched Prozac Nation and I have to say that in the end, I found it a bit disappointing. I was hoping that it would show that pills are not the answer. But instead it felt more like an advertisement for Prozac.

I can’t really say that Prozac is not the way to go because it does help SOME people but for me it does nothing. I end up feeling worse on Prozac. In fact, I didn’t like any of the medications that Dr. Head (Yes, my psychiatrist’s is Dr. Head) gave me. They all made me feel worse or like nothing at all, which to me is worse than feeling worse.

But I know people who likes their meds. It helps them get through life and get through the worst. Maybe I just haven’t found the right one but I don’t intend to keep looking. Sometimes you have to come to terms with the hand you’re dealt. I think I’m coming to terms with who I am and the problems I have. I’ve come to terms with being only 1,5m.

As for the crazies, I just try to keep it to myself. Every so often it comes out into the open but my friends and family understand that I’ve got the crazies and for most of the time, they forgive me.

why do we do this to ourselves???

I watched another episode of Big Love the other day.

I’ve noticed that I get a little upset about how these men behave. There’s a scene when Bill Paxton is talking to a friend of his who is also a polygamist and they’re so nonchalant about seeing other women in hopes of “bringing in another wife”.

Chloë Sevigny’s character is also pissing me off. I don’t really know or understand what it is about her that is pissing me off, but something about her is pissing me off.

Despite feeling slightly uncomfortable after watching an episode, I want to watch more and find out what happens to this family.

itchy tongue

I don’t think this is uncommon.

When I eat fresh pineapples, my tongue gets itchy. The same thing happens to my mom. I don’t know if this means that if I continue eating fresh pineapples, I’ll end up dying from anaphylactic shock. But at the present moment, it’s a bit of a pain in the ass ’cause I love fresh pineapples.

Yesterday I had my first blood orange. I’ve always wanted to try a blood orange. The first time I heard of the blood orange was on Martha Stewart Living. She was making something with blood oranges and I thought it was so cool. I never bought it when I saw it at the shops because I was worried that they would taste a bit like grapefruits. But we got some the other day from ICA. Fredrik insisted that it was sweet. He even pointed out the fact that it’s small so it was made for me. (When I was a kid, I used to think anything small were made for me. So I still prefer to eat small things, ie clementine.)

The blood orange is quite good. Although, mine was a bit dry. But it was still good. EXCEPT! My tongue got itchy afterwards. Is it like the pineapples? I don’t know. But I will have another blood orange today and we will see.

We also bought some Brämhults juice the other day. Coop was having a sale. Normally their juice is on the pricy side because they’re fresh squeezed. You can taste the rind in the orange juice.

Anyways. I bought a bottle of the strawberry & lime juice. I to believe it’s gone bad. Air comes out when you open the lid and the juice makes my tongue itchy.

I wonder what it is that makes my tongue itchy.